Tuesday, April 29 - 03:33

snooooop, dawg.

Tuesday, April 15 - 23:01

happy graduation!

So in all this missing while my sisters turned 21, beijing olympics started being boycotted, i discovered a love for japanese raw meat, my cousins from singapore came down, my mum stayed on (nightmare), while my dad returned to Riyadh, i got a new puppy, named it moscow, and experienced the shittiness that comes with working at a legal service as a measely law student with a supervisor constantly at your back; constantly counting the number of days you turn up and those you dont, all this while making mental calcuative deductions on the overall grades that you will recieve which will in turn like domino effect cause you much pain as you realised you spent the last 4 months slogging for a near pass grade.

shit battery low. think i better go charge before this fails to save. adios! Wednesday, March 5 - 01:51

guess what.

i'm alive!

hahahahahaha.
muak watch this page
shall be back for more. Monday, December 10 - 11:12







Monday, December 3 - 00:54

oh look its beating for you!

Sunday, October 28 - 14:27

you're just like an angel; so fucking special.

I sit on this chair which connects me to a desk; upon which a metallic silver laptop lies.
I am thinking of what to type; I want to make it sound nice, sound spontaneous, sound inspiring. But my mind is blank.

Like the symphony of sound produced by a clicking keyboard. The song playing in the playing in the background is a cover of Creep, by Radiohead. I like things on repeat.

I am thinking about cars; people; streets; names; people in their cars; names of streets; names of people; names of streets named after people; the empty 1.5 L water bottle lying on my desk; hydration, dehydration, antibiotics, bananas, ipods, commercialisation, advertisements, the bombardment of advertisements in our everyday lives; consumerism; our obsession with consumerism.

I like jazz; but I don’t listen to it enough.

I have an exam tomorrow, followed by the day after, and the day after the day after. Most part of me wants to die but the other wants me to live on. Obviously the death bit is an exaggeration; symbol is key. But yes I find it hard to survive at this point. I need food I need sleep I need air I need more things than a normal day. My life is filled with facts of the lives of anglo-saxon people whom I do not care about; the opinions of elderly anglo-saxon men who sit upon a high bench dictating to the world below them what they think should matter.

Who cares?

But because my dad has spent almost half of his entire life savings into the greedy money making institution that is the university; I have a moral/social/filial/conscionable obligation to pretend to care; and to allow a 3 hour paper in a crammed badly ventilated room to dictate what I do for a living in the future.

A future where people wear black robes to distinguish their high and mighty selves from the common folk, where they argue struggling single-income families' money away, under the blanket fantasy of helping a good cause. These people build their own castle of white ivory and mix and mingle within it with their like-minded narrow-minded peers; amongst cocktails and rich cuisine fuelled by the hopes and dreams of the ordinary person.

I am surrounded by a sea of notes; half-read, half-highlighted, half strewn all over the table. I feel like a lone ship in the middle of a deep dark black sea.

I feel more accomplished when I eat noodles from a $6.50 bowl compared to the average $8.50 you have to fork out for a bowl of stringy dough + soup. I like cheap noodles! In this continent, noodles are expensive shit.

Sim Tia- It means ‘heart pain’ in hokkien. That’s what I feel when I pay more for noodles than I think they’re worth.

You learn a new word today! Monday, October 15 - 17:53

make some noise for darfur

Monday, October 1 - 01:53

the asian people pocket book (melbourne)

www.flickr.com/asianpeople
Friday, September 7 - 10:43

bruce springsteen and the something band.

been eons since something came up upon this gorgeous page.
because i couldnt find a better photo due to lack of time and big amount of frustration that gathered whilst browsing chunk upon chunk of picture on my window-operated macbook, i consequentially attach mischa barton on the coverpage of my magazine.

she is not looking as glam, but that is the point.
no one looks glam all the time.
she is wearing a t-shirt, which although not the most flattering, is a cut of clothing people in general should put on more often.
lastly the oc has died; and she. looks. dead.

an immensely joyous post!
read more time to update yourself on current affairs; economist on money matters wikipedia for something new to learn everyday youtube to satisfy the vouyer in you and cosmopolitan for the most seductive way to bag a new man.

thats it! till the next post;
i love you and i know you love me too.

xoxoxoxoxooxx
christine the great. Tuesday, July 31 - 00:46

i like how the brick buildings come together.

alas! fresh post! Friday, June 29 - 11:15

hello i think you are hot #4

Tuesday, June 26 - 13:25

all in two minutes.

even though you're miles away
i wish you were here with me to stay
there are so many things i wish i could say
beside me i wish you would lay Monday, June 18 - 22:22

on the other side of the world.

wow if hairdye made us smile like that i'd grab a couple of million boxes please! Thursday, June 14 - 21:03

yeah! why not!

Tuesday, June 5 - 12:01

my exam fuel!

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination

I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
For whatever that means

And so I cry sometimes
When I'm lying in bed Just to get it all out
What's in my head
And I, I am feeling a little peculiar.

And so I wake in the morning
And I step outside
And I take a deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's going on?

And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?

and I try, oh my god do I try
I try all the time, in this institution

And I pray, oh my god do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution.

And I say, hey hey hey hey
I said hey, what's going on?

Twenty-five years and my life is still
Trying to get up that great big hill of hope
for a destination
mmh mh

Monday, June 4 - 01:53

baby, its all about opportunity.

its important. you got to deliberately create chances. so that you dont miss out on the awesome ones. and settle eventually for less-awesome replicas. in the delusion that they're mighty and great. Thursday, May 31 - 14:01

HEAT REQUIRED.

someone should make heated toiletbowls more mainstream and ten times cheaper. esp during winter.the requisite peeling off of layers required eachtime in the cubicle never fails to make one feel raw, vulnerable and exposed to atoms upon atoms of cold gas, resulting in the rigorous, systematic freezing of the ass.

and since big jobs in general require longer periods of time, shitting will only prolong the agony. Immense amounts of concentration, normally needed to produce effective results in quickest time, will be inadvertently hindered by the cold air(coldness not being the most ideal condition of pushing out of waste). This results in a longer production period, making one doubly raw, vulnerable and exposed, thereby extending, emphasising and elongating the systematic freezing of the ass.

not a good thing.

(Btw, Miss Japan Riyo Mori is Winner of Miss Universe 2007! GO ASIA) Tuesday, May 29 - 20:33

hello i think you are hot #3

attraction, is a very powerful feeling.
it is not weak like cracked pepper, it is not mild like bland soap.

you become cautious of what you say and what you do, because you want to present the right impression. your heart beats a faster rhythm (like a pop song) and you smile alot. you smile stupidly alot.

because all you wanna do is talk alot more but your brain is smiling too much that you cant really figure out what you want to say. to the person of attraction. to the person that is attractive, to the person that attracted you.

and when he asks if you like a particular genre of song you giggle um, yeah and he says ok i'l burn you a disc, and he asks what your favourite movie is, and you say um, heaps? he says why dont we watch one next saturday? and when he asks what cuisine you enjoy the most you say um, thai? he says ok i know of this place that serves pretty decent shit, you go hehehehehe and then you realise omgfuckshitcrap i just giggled like a bimbo. and then he smiles. and you smile back and you fall helplessly back into the tunnel of mindnumbingly crazy fastheartbeatmaybelove.

now you got me hooked on like a drug. Saturday, May 26 - 16:17

hello i think you are hot #2

Labels are important to the Living, They dictate how people see themselves. - Desperate Housewives Thursday, May 24 - 13:16

omg omg

hahaha.

ghahaha.

ok. change subject. thou shalt not get me started.
i like the song umbrella! Friday, May 18 - 18:18



its pointless to put so much thought into something that makes little sense. so, fuck it. Wednesday, May 16 - 02:27

i miss you .

Monday, May 14 - 23:09

hello, i think you are hot #1

- 11:46

the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind

Monday, May 7 - 01:26

miss universe

So the hiao one in the middle is our Miss Universe. Her name is Jessica Tan Yue Chang (very singaporean name). Miss Thailand, wedged in the middle between Phillipines and Singapura seems to be the prettiest of the four. But this contest is all about inward wit and intelligence and morality and not outward beauty right? wrong.

but who cares lah. these girls are having fun and if this is what makes them happy, then yay, go for it. flesh parade or otherwise, objectification or liberalisation feminist or male-chauvinist it makes the world happy and ceos gain money and tv continues to sell steadily.

we lap it up like crazy. Monday, April 16 - 16:07

hello.

I am quite certain that we are all products of our perspectives.
I am angry that this world has many double-standards, is highly gendered, and in essence, terribly unfair.

Equality is somewhat like perfection though, difficult to achieve and ultimately very unattainable. Equality does not necessarily guarantee Perfection though, because more often than not, fairness arrives in mismatched, unbalanced packages. The beauty is in the complementary im-balance(This is similar to the Yin/Yang concept).

I also know that a big distinction lies in the catering for people in masses- 'intellecuals' vs. the common people. We are fed diferent material depedning on our backgrounds, our socio-economic class, the things we are exposed to on a daily basis. An example is this :The free tv channels provided in every country usually only revolve around silly game-shows/reality tv/soap operas/junk food of the tv world; they feed the general masses with the type of tv programs they like to watch. Cheap, easy and voyueristic. Whereas if you had a little more money and wanted to be more informed you could get a subscription to cable you could be exposed to BBC/CNN (which actually focuses on world issues unlike Australian News)/documentary series which in turn broadens your perspective on life (this is not to say that all people who watch cable tv are intelligent, it is merely a small example of the large amount of potential exposure to different material based on the category/class of persons you belong to)

Just like how pastors/preaches/scholars/scientists in general know the gospel slightly differently from your typical sunday church-goer, whos eager and willing non-questiong hearts and minds and souls are utterly devoted to serving their lord and saviour. You see, passion is good, but passion without reason equates to mindless obsession. Common-people passion does not question, it follows wholeheartedly, certain that one day their mindless devotion will reap eternal salvation.

I happen to think that there is a requisite large amount of brainwashing involved. Here, issues of culture, tradition and history come into play. The various concepts of the bible/religion are pushed through generation to generation, manifesting itself in a person's subconcious and embedding itself deeply in every facet of the persons life, nonwithstanding how absurd these religious stories may actually sound.

The idea of Faith, is Ideal and Nice, but it opposes Reason.
It appeals to the Human desire for security and meaning, and the human heart, when vulnerable, is raw and beating and open to anything. Faith (even as small as a mustard seed), therefore serves as an entirely effective concept for the non-wavering, ever-standing validification of the presence of God(s) in general, together with the persecution of minority sub-sets of thinking, holy wars, various genital mutilations, painful body-harming rituals and condemnation of fellow humankind. Saturday, April 14 - 00:15

Saturday, April 7 - 10:52

quick, before its too late.

Monday, April 2 - 18:16

Monday, March 26 - 23:41

jealousy breeds discrepancy.

how much will it take to be someone great
how much will it hurt to be someone fake Saturday, March 24 - 12:21

To: YOU.

Thursday, March 22 - 12:35

i will not be emo and shit.

As a slang word, emo is not defined by standard English dictionaries, and thus, its grammatical usage is not either. In popular usage, it can be used as either a noun or adjective.[7][10]

Adjective (1): All my friends are emo.
Adjective (2): I feel emo today.
Noun: That person is such an emo.

(my sister says i am emo and shit.) Wednesday, March 21 - 18:05

MY HONEY DARLING SWEETIE PIE

Monday, March 19 - 03:48

people often form inaccurate impressions of each other.

(first and last and everything inbetween.) Monday, March 12 - 00:29

Can I Get Your Number, Baby.

I want to get organised quickly, but crap, it is a very lenghty process. It involves alot of thought and motivation, and sometimes you get that sudden urge of willingness to attempt to implement a life-changing plan/idea, but that feeling is terribly temporal, and when you finally get to it, it dies down.

the climax is anti. (anti-climax)

Also, i feel that your normal generic guy, in attempting to befriend a girl, often has an agenda; i.e. the more a guy is attracted to a girl, the more he will want to be her friend, thus translating into the amount of time he is willing to spend with her, in the hope (delusional or otherwise) of possibly hooking up with her one fine day. So in a sense you can never get an absolute, plantonic friendship, because somewhere along the line, something will screw up, and things become complex and multi-tiered. Or you would have to settle for a medicore-hey-lets-meet-up-once-in-awhile- type friendship with the opposite sex, because,

Guy + Girl alone + Extended period of time = FEELINGS. (Whether you like it or not.)

You may be so not attracted to the other party @first glance, but trust me, overtime +alone+guy and girl = shit will develop. Extended period of time refers to Overseas Study/Live/Cook Together etc. Hence you find alot of individuals find themselves morph into disgustingly loving moochy couples/non-individuals (and mostly devoid of their original identity) when they stay around same area/alone/go same sch/class/club. Beacause, proximity breeds convenience, and convenience breeds relationships. Of course, you got the whole ooh!but we feel a connection! bullshit, but yeah, no proximity = no convenience = no relationship = no freaking connection; you get the drift. Why the hell to do think LDRs (long dist rlnshps) are so challenging to keep (im not saying its impossible); esp. because humans are such fickle creatures who are distracted and horny and always wanting something new and stimulating.

On a seperate note,most guys get shit-scared/tounge-tied when talking to the object of their affection. So object of affection is often left in the dark. Who else comes to pick-up? THE PLAYER. The Players are the only sub-category of guys who actually know how to talk to girls. Players have this special ability to pick-up their girls at the crucial initial key points. I.e. at a crowded party/club/on the street.

These are what you call the periods of short initial make/break exposure,which is essentially foundation to the building blocks of love/lust/not-so-platonic friendships. You get the number you get the girl. If you dont because of shyness and hesitance not overcome, then bye-bye-baby!; and very rarely will there be a second time. It is pretty amusing to see the hunter smooth-talk his prey, not always in utter display for all to see, but they manuvere correctly in the right amounts.

More often than not, players do not appear like players. There are different degrees and variations. Im not talking the obvious spike drink hit on girl in club type. Girls are aware of these and take ample precaution, but let their guard down (not to say that you gotta always keep your guard up, cause then you would be an uptight piece of shit) in the daily context of everyday/school/work/play.

They is your neighbour, your classmate and your office-boy. Together they make girl think she is special in a very discreet way, and then she will blush and giggle and feel all bubbly inside, and feel that she is special and only one in whole world; oblivious to the fact that she is a mere statistic in his game.

Obviously you've got those genuine mambo jambo sweet-guy types, but this post is not about them knights in shining armours, those real ones i dedicate to another day. Players are by no means limited to the male gender, because many girls delight in the fact that they can make many silly men fall for them. They like to play/lead-on once they know they got a guy hanging off their heels. These are the girls that reflect the player's advances, and happily play-back; and pretend- giggle and gush, so the player thinks he has obtained another mere statistic in his game. What comes around goes around; peanuts.

So guilliable, these things.

Now by this point, I feel the need to further elaborate, to prettify my case, but it seems that I have now lost my trend of thought. You see, things come and go, just like fat boyfriends and skinny girlfriends, blue rainbows and bright sunshine, you still gotta know that sticks and stones, they don't break your bones.

Will continue another time i feel inspired to complete this post.

Much Love, No Kisses.

xoxox Friday, March 9 - 12:25

hello folks.

Please click to enlarge;
Wednesday, March 7 - 11:02

Hey Kids! Always Practice SAFE SEX.

Remember, SAFE SEX is Extremely Important. No matter how ooh-so-cute! the guy is, how many times he tells you you're special and pretty and how your eyes sparkle like the bright stars in the dark night, generally how much fancy bull-shit he butters you up with, always use a condom when you are having drunk delusional feel-good sex.

It is always better to play safe nonwithstanding the fact that you may have been played. You will awake a happier person.

xoxoxox.

Tuesday, February 27 - 12:44


Sunday, February 25 - 10:36

The Sweet Escape, By Gwen Stefani.

I like listening to The Fray's How To Save A Life.
I am in the midst of reading The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins.
I believe there may be a God; and therefore a Heaven.
I like eating nutella from the little expensive packets better than straight from the bottle.

This is because although things in big bulk give you value in savings over time, it is the intricate detail in life that makes you appreciate all the goodness in the world.

I believe that all religion is motivated by the selfish gene deeply embedded in all of us, the need to be loved and accepted and loved again and again, because otherwise, without a purpose to live for (man-made or not), we crumble like falling blocks and bruise our fragile egos.

I also like to listen to Snow (Hey Oh) by The Red Hot Chilli Peppers.

I like to people- watch.
And I secretly hope that people like to people-watch me back.

Intelligence with a sprinkle of Smart Wit and Dry Sarcastic Dark Humour; Turn Me On.

I Write In CAPS To Emphasize A Point.

I Miss You Very Much, But You Don't Know.
And I Dont Intend To Tell You.
I am waiting for you to say it to me.

I like to think that all people were born pure and good, but most screw up along the way because they hate themselves too much to be at peace with the world.

I like microwavable meals.
I like airplane food.
I like cheap tea and chinese grocery.
I like looking into the supermarket trolly(s) of strangers, because it gives you brilliant indicators on personality.

Lastly,
Every step we take is a step into the future and a step away from the past.

So, dump the depressive maniac new-age person in you and start! Living In The Present Moment.

Oh! And The Escape Will Be Swee,t.

xoxoxo Wednesday, February 14 - 19:46

Bowling For Columbine

Monday, February 12 - 03:30

strangers!

are friends you haven't met.



Wednesday, February 7 - 16:23

Sunday, February 4 - 14:48

your, life

is a Physical Manifestation of the Thoughts That Run Through Your Head.



xoxox Monday, January 29 - 01:51

rubbish boyfriend.

Thursday, January 25 - 03:30

this is rarity.

i just finished my pleadings assingment. It was handed out today and will be due tomorrow at 9am. The sense of accomplishment pride and joy that cometh along upon completion of law assignment is utterly overwhelming. Maybe they should have more 1-day-dateline type assignments; so the last-minute expertress in me would have significantly less time to procrastinate.

for once, i feel efficient and almost complete. its so liberating.

On another note altogether, i paid AU$3.50 for a bowl of HK-Style Congee and 2 (NOTE TWO) delightful char siew paos this morning during some school breakfast special(only available between the hours of 8-11am).

In a land of $8-Dollar boring hum-drum unappetizing and overpriced cuisine, this is indeed (vad i like to call), raririrty!


x Tuesday, January 23 - 11:37

walk down the street for some sunday brunch

Home-made and quite nice!

Thinking Out Loud

(Verse 1)

Girl I wrote this rhyme to make you feel better
I'd love to see you chillin wearing my old sweater
You know it don't matter raining or shiny weather
Cause whenever together we'll make another love letter

When we first met your style so mysterious
My game was weak my style so precarious
Ever since then Im so so delirious
Didn't have a clue that love was this serious

(Chorus)

The night's passing by our eyes but time has stopped 'cause baby we belong together
And when our eyes met for the first time you came gently to my rescue saved me from the moment that seemed forever

(Verse 2)

I woke up this morning to the beat of rocksteady
And wrote this song for you girl are you ready
Walk down the street for some Sunday brunch and
You can tell me all about some runway function

We're two different folks but look we see the same strokes
Stay in my room, kick back and watch the sunset
Take you to the zoo, come on remember how we met

(Chorus)

(Verse 3)

Its like steppin inside in the middle of the riot
And finding a place to myself so very quiet
When you take me to your world

I Never got around to make myself better
But the story of my life I'll tell you in this letter
When you take me to your world

(Outro)

Baby let me make you feel like
Lady you and I could chil then
Maybe I can show you my heart that
Lately I've been thinking about you

Time is now can I step into your soul and find my place in the light, in the middle of your love and future
You and me we can wake up on the moon and find the stars in the night, as they shine on us forever baby ... (more) (less)
Friday, January 19 - 03:05

Generic Love #2458

Dear You,

I really like talking to you. I like how your face scrunches up when you pause to make an intellectual point. I like the way you roll your eyes in sarcasm. I like your wit. I like your style. I like you cool like a bathroom tile. I like the way you move. The way you drive me crazy. I like the way you drive; the way you jive.

You make my heart, thrive.

I like it when you frown, the way you make absolutely no sound. I like the smell of your cheap shampoo. I like the way you sashay to the loo. I like it when you say you'll pay, and in return i'l owe you 24 hours of a whole day.

I like the way you sing, offkey, because to me you still make a melody.

I tried to like it when we began to come apart, like a spinning rollercoaster unravelling all its parts. I liked the way i failed, each time i tried to bring myself to forget you, although you probably didnt have a clue. I like the way I now remember you, a distant memory, locked away far yet somewhere quite near to me.

For all the joylovesorrowpainhappinessexcitementbrilliance that came along in our song, I just wanted to say;

Thank you, for loving me yourspecialway.



XOXOX
EveryOtherBoyandGirl


x Thursday, January 18 - 00:22

my mum; circa 1982.

I heard there was a secret chord
That david played and it pleased the lord
But you dont really care for music, do you?

And it goes like this the forth, the fifth
The minor chord and the major lift
The baffled king composing hallelujah.

x Saturday, January 13 - 14:42

the correlation between life and shit

WHAT IS LIFE? shit.
WHAT IS SHIT? something that happens
CONCLUSION: life is shit that happens.


bye folks! off to something more exciting!

x Wednesday, January 10 - 00:55

i this song like much very

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from A to where you'd B
It's only finger lengths that I see

I touch the place
Where I'd find your face
My fingers increases
Of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

And miles from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground and I
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted close our eyelids

And dreaming pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

And miles form where you are
I lay down on the cold ground and I
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

And miles form where you are
I lay down on the cold ground and I
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms Sunday, January 7 - 19:35

I'LL PAINT YOU A NORDIC COLOUR.

her name is sash, 11 weeks old and shes the latest addition to the family. her name came about cause shes light brown, and she loves to dash (run fast). Sash also sorta reminds you of the ribbon on the back of a dress; all fabulous and fantastic. didnt wanna name her anything overtly girly, like tabitha or nikkitata or lucilana. shes a mad dog really; a freaking hyper ball of energy, full of spring and erm, punch? In essence, her cutesypumpkinpie look is really quite decieving.

now this post is named nordic color cause i bought a box of schwarzkopf hair dye somewhere middle of december with the grand intention of streaking my hair some colour. but i have yet to open it.

fuck i just had a thought. life is far too short. you know how you hate cliche sayings so much cause they're heavily overused but then also because it holds so much truth you want to curl up in denial. then like theres so much shit going on in the world, too much to talk about.

SO! i'm gonna leave you with a song instead; rapper version of classic song taken from Annie The Musical. (the girl with the redhair/redhead for those who know; yay.)



And because i like to sound concrete and coherent, i'm gonna leave you with this quote just before i leave

The power of the spirit pulls us upward, while the power of material things pulls us downward. Someone bent on martyrdom becomes immune to the material pull.

Nasra Hassan, Suicide Bomber
Interview by The New Yorker,
19 November 2001

Sounds very similar to the Christian concept of "thou shalt not be swayed by the things of the material world"- Whatever.


The religious smoke is very thick; its gettinghardtobreathe.

Friday, January 5 - 11:03

the f -language.

ohfo myfy gawdfawd.

its january too soon!


x Friday, December 29 - 02:09

Of Love That Is Unrequited.

After watching “The Holiday” which by the way wasn’t all that great; very tedious/long (135 mins!) to sit through unless you enjoy lovey-dovey predictable raw storyline; the conversations/drama that take place are mind-numbingly slow and politically correct (even Cameron Diaz’s goofy-sexy screen-persona couldn’t save it);

I had a thought about unrequited love.

What is it that makes someone cling on so badly to someone/an ideal that doesn’t respond favourably? Is it the hope that something deep will eventually evolve/the spark will re-ignite/you will reap because you sow(ed) so much time and energy into the pining of that someone. Personally, I feel its not worth it; so I don’t (and havent) fall(en) in love/like too heavily/quickly enough to have experienced unrequitedlovelessness (but this is another story/ and then at this juncture people feel the need to say- true love cannot be controlled/constrained/put into a box; you just feel/you just love/it flows it goes whether you like it anot yada yada whatever la).


But then is love equivalent to letting go? Are you obliged to feel happy and merry when you see your ex parading the streets with their newfound love? Do you give your blessing or do you enviously pine their return; therefore presenting the development of unrequited love.

Or, even the slight thought of “getting back together” with an ex/ being in extremely close proximity with a “has-been” (broke-up but still house/hall/flat mates) is a very tricky situation; it is not exactly love that is unrequited; it sorta hangs in the balance; you still date other people; mainly as a self-defense mechanism/ test of market value/ denial of break-up/attempt of a fresh start but you still position yourself close enough just in case something came up. You’ll be there; in case she decides to take you back, when she realizes what a horrible mistake she made blah blah.

In essence, love is complicated. And I don’t mean the general all-encompassing selfless sort; more so of the “had-been” love; love decorated with cobwebs; shoved under the carpet love; the great love that once was; now gone; but may make a return.

Now what if it doesn’t? Does the unloved live in constant hope/pleasure/pain/anguish that someday this relationship may one day be revived; even though the harsh reality is that it will not. You see; so its totally made-up/preventable stuff.

The only one at loss is that someone new and great and awesome who will come along; because all he/she will get is second-hand love (more on this another time)/reduced to playing sidekick to your emo/reminiscent/lovelorn+lost protagonist.


Unhealthy! And not very pleasant at all.


(sorry boys, but picture has got zero relevance to post.)

x Sunday, December 24 - 03:47

i like this song

and i know you have probably heard this a hundred times, but have a very merry christmas ya'alll with the southern drawl!

jesus is watching you.



x Thursday, December 21 - 14:37

fiona xie is hot but utt is not

He talks ALOT about himself....I WAS? I DID? YEAH YEAH THATS TRUE CAUSE LIKE LAST YEAR; I STARTED SKATING AGAIN...I'M REALLY INTO LIKE THIS; AND ALSO LIKE THAT... I'M TALL, BUT YOU SEE I'M ALSO LIKE SHORT...HEE HEE AND MY NAME IS LIKE; UTT; I SORTA LIKE MYSELF ALOT?


ok lah, maybe cause he's being interviewed he should talk a fair bit about himself; but still!



x Wednesday, December 20 - 14:41

postsecret!

Friday, December 15 - 01:25


Narcissus was a man so consumed with his self-image that he drowned in it.

a. Freud believed that some narcissism is an essential part of all of us from birth
b. Andrew Morrison claims that, in adults, a reasonable amount of healthy narcissism allows the individual's perception of his need to be balanced in relation to others
c. In psychology and psychiatry, excessive narcissim is recognized as a severe personality dysfunction or personality disorder, most characteristically Narcissitic Personality Disorder, also referred to as NPD.
d. The terms "narcissm" , "narcissistic" and "narcissist" are often used as pejoratives, denoting vanity,conceit, egotism or simple selfishness. Tuesday, December 12 - 19:28

unattainable.

i kinda like the fact that you are





x Sunday, December 10 - 22:57

the stranger with the broken mug

there is a fucking big moth moping around in my room and i think i may have just dislocated its wing because i am swishing a crumpled piece of paper violently across random areas of air. the sharp edges may have sliced off its ability to fly. it has stopped moving. i flick my finger against its body. it starts to flutter around haphazardly and climbs onto my wrist. i am irritated. i brush it off impatiently. it flies away and conveniently settles itslef upon the curved surface of a $2 yellow highlighter from the reject shop. the moth is stupid stupid moth.

it lives today.


x Friday, December 8 - 00:36

i dont think i got the maternal instinct.

Sunday, December 3 - 22:47

i am single and ready to mingle.

find me a hawt boy today!


Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

*scat*

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x

no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved
open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...

i am addicted to this song

xoxox Friday, December 1 - 18:46

street smart.

Monday, November 27 - 01:24

things you dont expect

my grandma in singapore got admitted to hospital for stroke 2 days ago. i hope she gets better soon.

i was speaking to her on the phone the day before and she was telling me how strong and happy she was. things are not gonna be the same from now on.



x Saturday, November 25 - 19:00

monotheism.

The great unmentionable evil at the center of our culture is monotheism. From a barbaric bronze age text known as the old testament, three anti-human religions have evolved- Judaism, Christianity, and Islam. These are sky-god religions. They are, literally, patriarchal. God is the omnipotent father; hence the loathing of women for 2000 years in those countries afflicted by the sky-god and his earthly male delegates.

Gore Vidal


x Saturday, November 11 - 03:18

ce mois-ci dans cosmo

Sexe
De Oh Oui! a Faut voir
que disent-ils
de nos fantasmes?




x Sunday, November 5 - 14:26

hotplay/!

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you.


x

SSONGS OF THE MO!

1) Fix you/ Coldplay
2) Irreplacable/ Beyonce
3) Grillz/ Nelly
4) Who Knew/ Pink
5) Hallelujah/ Jeff Buckley
6) Say its Possible/ Terra Naomi
7) Welcome to the Black Parade/ My Chemical Romance
8) Bang Bang/ Nancy Sinatra
9) Losing my way/ Justin Timberlake
10) Free Loop/ Daniel Powter Saturday, November 4 - 01:39

australia

everyone around here is so fucking gorgeous lah.
and by everyone i mean girls; the guys dont stand out.
and no, im not lesbian.


x Monday, October 30 - 14:35

WAH LAU

aiyah you want to be entertained about other peoples lives go other blog lah.
im not here to entertain (repetition!) intrigue or frequently fascinate (alliteration!) you can.

i dont like to blog about what time i brush my teeth, say goodmorning, say goodnight, say thank you everybody for being sucha wonderful friend to me, what time i eat dinner, who bring me out on date, who buy me lunch, why i so hot stuff, which guy i like, which girl i dont like, what clothing i wear, what clothing i dont wear (double wink) why my heart so broken until cannot mend, boyfriend leave me sobZ sObz sureZ DiEz liaOs. HEHE I NEED MY HELLOKITTY >_<.

booooooooooooooooooooring!

let me eat my cake, you eat yours okay.

byebyeand have fun. i will have to study for exam now or SURE FAIL BEECOME HEARTLAND MALL MACDONALDS CASHIER THEN DONWAN.

because then i will have NO MONEY to buy powersuit/ go cocktail parties then cannot find rich/cute/sexy banker lawyer boyfriend; then cannot send childeren to SAP school/Gifted program; cannot be RICH TAI TAI, no high tea no mahjong then MY LIFE GOT NO MEANING.

so just let me be arty farty and feminist and crazy and aloof and mindboggolingly sexy-mysterious so your nostrils will emit smoke when you read my revolutionary poetry-creations and pro-abortion essays on stupid men-leaders in todays patriarchal society; theories on betty friedan/noami wolf theories and gender inequality in the workforce and the crisis of masculinity.

be gone you vouyerist in you; my heart is not worn on thy sleeve! the laughter is evil. go www.xiaxue.blogspot.com or www.dawnyang.com lah; for your daily dose of entertainment; for we belong to a different category; my darling! neither inferior nor superior just different;



same same BUT DIFFERENT!




x Sunday, October 29 - 12:55

Thursday, October 26 - 20:19

my next paper is

two down but two more to go :(
i really really like driving! :)





x - 02:12

the love level is hot today!

AND I HAVE AN EXAM TOMORROW :( Sunday, October 22 - 00:57

boys who play.

skirt chaser
black blazer
sharp pretense
of a star-gazer

ooze charm
cause harm
flirt hurt
no alarm
you're all of numb

drift this way
mud to clay
just mere play
root on hay

illusion of satisfation
tinted sexual fascination
girly giggles, heartbroken sighs and fragrant lies
fragrant lies

temporal high
lolita cries

the thrill dies down
the world spins around
your cock the clown

somewhereoutthere,
another fuck newfound
captive to be bound
blindness takes over
your lust is crowned



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